Goodbye A-Levels...

It has been a while now.... I was busy with arranging my thoughts and suppressing my feelings...
Not even I could predict that I will be leaving A-Levels..... It was so sudden... Not even a sign...
May be there was a sign but I overlooked it...

Anyway, that was been directed upon me.
I somehow felt like I have been neglected and unappreciated by my own boss.
I'm constantly feeling like a ball.... been thrown here and there right now.
May be I did somethings in my past and this is the repayment time.... may be.
Only Allah knows what's best in-stored for me.

My thoughts keep wondering around as to where did I do wrongly......
Sometimes I felt betrayed... back-stabbed... sad... crushed... misinterpreted...
Yup... I'm only a servant... I should think like Nabi Ibrahim when God asked him to slay his only son...

I should be thankful coz I still am working... doing what I love best...
Really trying very hard to keep it cool...
Trying very hard to keep it as a secret... but again... I failed.

I need support... I need someone to tell me "you have done a great job"...
"WE LOVE YOU... WE WANT YOU.... PUAN LIN"
but again.... a Happy Teachers Day wish is just enough...
they broke my heart...
but I still love them.