Wednesday, June 16, 2010

FRGS dan e-FRGS

really confuse with all of this... I have to submit... hardcopy or softcopy...??

whatever it is... today's talk by Prof Ku Ruhana from UUM has been adding to the headache that already exist...
dawn to me... being a lecturer nowadays is a very challenging and demanding career... need to come out with a research proposal by end of this week!!!

HELP!

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Goodbye A-Levels...

It has been a while now.... I was busy with arranging my thoughts and suppressing my feelings...
Not even I could predict that I will be leaving A-Levels..... It was so sudden... Not even a sign...
May be there was a sign but I overlooked it...

Anyway, that was been directed upon me.
I somehow felt like I have been neglected and unappreciated by my own boss.
I'm constantly feeling like a ball.... been thrown here and there right now.
May be I did somethings in my past and this is the repayment time.... may be.
Only Allah knows what's best in-stored for me.

My thoughts keep wondering around as to where did I do wrongly......
Sometimes I felt betrayed... back-stabbed... sad... crushed... misinterpreted...
Yup... I'm only a servant... I should think like Nabi Ibrahim when God asked him to slay his only son...

I should be thankful coz I still am working... doing what I love best...
Really trying very hard to keep it cool...
Trying very hard to keep it as a secret... but again... I failed.

I need support... I need someone to tell me "you have done a great job"...
"WE LOVE YOU... WE WANT YOU.... PUAN LIN"
but again.... a Happy Teachers Day wish is just enough...
they broke my heart...
but I still love them.

Monday, April 19, 2010

Last Classes ~ A sad week

This week is the last week I'm having classes with my senior students.

Today, one of the noisiest class became so silent when I say "Ok. Remember this as this will be the last time I'm reminding you..... ." Everyone suddenly kept quiet coz they know I will never again nag them or torture them with my homework. It's now all independent and solely learning by themselves.

Yes... I'll be around until the exam. But no longer will enter their class.

Good luck for the A-level exam to the ALM9 and ALUK6 batch! God speed....

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Hooray to a Hectic Day ahead!!

I hope that what I saw in the staff portal is true... please let it be true... please.... don't revert it to something else..

And today, quite chaotic... but I still manage to blog a bit.. 1 hour gap right now...


My question is why is it students nowadays are so so so..... DEMANDING??!!!
I told you that I will not be able to attend to you untill 3... You want my lunch hour?? Fine.... So I rescheduled the class from 2-4 to 1-3...Then comes along this student that I helped with her Bio project... She text me... I couldn't reply coz I know I was busy... She called... I told her that I am available only after 3... and tomorrow I'm available.. but no.......
she still want to come at 3... what a hectic day ahead... that's only work... my 'responsibility-as-a-mother' duty to supply breast milk is another one... I dunno when I can have time to do that today....

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

What ever lah!

This week for me is the one of the most mental-torturous, exhausting, controversial  week..

Yesterday, a student threw his pen only because I didn't want to give the answers to the exercises which we will discuss in our next lesson. I told them in the real exam you don't have the answers as a guide, so it's a good practice from now on to do just that.... he was so 'kurang ajar' where he did his very unhappy face and he threw his pen in front of me!!! I just smiled... coz I didn't know how to react to such behaviour as this is the first for me!

Never in my entire teaching years I encountered such student. What is becoming of our next generation? That was what I was thinking right after that class ended. I don't care how clever or genius you are, if you do not know how to RESPECT other PEOPLE, especially a person that gives you her heart and sole to educate you... fine... just go to hell!! It's frustrating to see students like that... but, he is the only one like that... I think. I felt that these students knows they are selected students, which is so called 'genius', they forget that their 'genius' can only get them to one level... the rest is still your interpersonal skills... I forgive him. I think he is immature. Still in my heart I pray that my children would never act like that.

My exhaustion continues as I had to prepare exam questions, timetables, etc... plus both my children is not well. So, I'm tired at the office and at home as well....

My frustration biggest one is... I received a letter which revised my salary. Which is good... but how come a good thing bring so much frustration?? Only I know for sure... what is written is not reflecting my expectation. However, Allah is always blessing me with his grace... Insyaallah.. I'll survive this week..