FRGS dan e-FRGS

really confuse with all of this... I have to submit... hardcopy or softcopy...??

whatever it is... today's talk by Prof Ku Ruhana from UUM has been adding to the headache that already exist...
dawn to me... being a lecturer nowadays is a very challenging and demanding career... need to come out with a research proposal by end of this week!!!

HELP!

Goodbye A-Levels...

It has been a while now.... I was busy with arranging my thoughts and suppressing my feelings...
Not even I could predict that I will be leaving A-Levels..... It was so sudden... Not even a sign...
May be there was a sign but I overlooked it...

Anyway, that was been directed upon me.
I somehow felt like I have been neglected and unappreciated by my own boss.
I'm constantly feeling like a ball.... been thrown here and there right now.
May be I did somethings in my past and this is the repayment time.... may be.
Only Allah knows what's best in-stored for me.

My thoughts keep wondering around as to where did I do wrongly......
Sometimes I felt betrayed... back-stabbed... sad... crushed... misinterpreted...
Yup... I'm only a servant... I should think like Nabi Ibrahim when God asked him to slay his only son...

I should be thankful coz I still am working... doing what I love best...
Really trying very hard to keep it cool...
Trying very hard to keep it as a secret... but again... I failed.

I need support... I need someone to tell me "you have done a great job"...
"WE LOVE YOU... WE WANT YOU.... PUAN LIN"
but again.... a Happy Teachers Day wish is just enough...
they broke my heart...
but I still love them.

Last Classes ~ A sad week

This week is the last week I'm having classes with my senior students.

Today, one of the noisiest class became so silent when I say "Ok. Remember this as this will be the last time I'm reminding you..... ." Everyone suddenly kept quiet coz they know I will never again nag them or torture them with my homework. It's now all independent and solely learning by themselves.

Yes... I'll be around until the exam. But no longer will enter their class.

Good luck for the A-level exam to the ALM9 and ALUK6 batch! God speed....

Hooray to a Hectic Day ahead!!

I hope that what I saw in the staff portal is true... please let it be true... please.... don't revert it to something else..

And today, quite chaotic... but I still manage to blog a bit.. 1 hour gap right now...


My question is why is it students nowadays are so so so..... DEMANDING??!!!
I told you that I will not be able to attend to you untill 3... You want my lunch hour?? Fine.... So I rescheduled the class from 2-4 to 1-3...Then comes along this student that I helped with her Bio project... She text me... I couldn't reply coz I know I was busy... She called... I told her that I am available only after 3... and tomorrow I'm available.. but no.......
she still want to come at 3... what a hectic day ahead... that's only work... my 'responsibility-as-a-mother' duty to supply breast milk is another one... I dunno when I can have time to do that today....

What ever lah!

This week for me is the one of the most mental-torturous, exhausting, controversial  week..

Yesterday, a student threw his pen only because I didn't want to give the answers to the exercises which we will discuss in our next lesson. I told them in the real exam you don't have the answers as a guide, so it's a good practice from now on to do just that.... he was so 'kurang ajar' where he did his very unhappy face and he threw his pen in front of me!!! I just smiled... coz I didn't know how to react to such behaviour as this is the first for me!

Never in my entire teaching years I encountered such student. What is becoming of our next generation? That was what I was thinking right after that class ended. I don't care how clever or genius you are, if you do not know how to RESPECT other PEOPLE, especially a person that gives you her heart and sole to educate you... fine... just go to hell!! It's frustrating to see students like that... but, he is the only one like that... I think. I felt that these students knows they are selected students, which is so called 'genius', they forget that their 'genius' can only get them to one level... the rest is still your interpersonal skills... I forgive him. I think he is immature. Still in my heart I pray that my children would never act like that.

My exhaustion continues as I had to prepare exam questions, timetables, etc... plus both my children is not well. So, I'm tired at the office and at home as well....

My frustration biggest one is... I received a letter which revised my salary. Which is good... but how come a good thing bring so much frustration?? Only I know for sure... what is written is not reflecting my expectation. However, Allah is always blessing me with his grace... Insyaallah.. I'll survive this week..

Suicidal Lizards in INTEC... BEWARE!

Eerie... and gruesome..

I switch on my PC today... and there were an error msg indicating that the chassis fan was not working....fine.
Then again, it made my PC's performance slow and hang a few times.
So I reboot the PC and still the warning pops out. I look at the back of my PC, yup... the chassis fan is not spinning....
Then, I saw a trail of small red ants hovering over the chassis fan and around the table.... to my surprise....
a dead lizard was hanging between the blades of the fan.... I poke it with a pen.... it came out, partially. The remains are buried in the PC. The smell............... cisss.. durjana sungguh cicak itu. Had to burn in-scents to cover up the smell......

There was another case where a lizard was found in the air-condition of the office of some other lecturer. But that lizard was lucky... It just 'fainted'. May be that time his mission 'fail' and now he came to my room and accomplished his mission to die???

I have no idea.....

My 1st Journal Publication

Just to share my success of having to publish my paper in an international journal.... sweet!!!

I hope this will be the beginnings to many more publications in future... pray for me!!
Chayo Lin.. you can do it!!

Welcome to Cafe Basil

I'm addicted to Cafe World.... in FB,... help!!!
This is my latest performance... I think it will get better if only I can reach a level like my ex-student Loon Ying... Level 67.. and going up... the only thing is... why is it sometimes the Buzz Rate fell down drastically?? I didn't do anything?? Hazwan?? Any idea??

Money-wise.. not much.. but look at the BUZZ RATING... hihihi

that's the first time it exceeds 70... amazing!! 

Update on Munawwarah's Event

So...anybody interested??

Life is double-sided

Got this from the mail... love to share it..

Life is double-sided;

There is a wrong side and a right side;

 A sad side and a happy side.

There is a good side and a bad side;

A black side and a bright side.

So if things seem dark to you,

 just change your thoughts about.

Life will look quite different 

if you turn it best side out.

 ~unknown~

Comment:

there's also a middle-side.. where they call it the grey area...?? There's no fine line as to distinguish the right from the wrong... and the good from the bad... sometimes... it's just not clear...

so... may be Yin and Yang should have a Yong in the middle?? *LOL*

I need a new HP!!

It has been two weeks since my HP has stop presenting the number '8' and 'cancel'... Frust gilers!!!
So since Monday, I have started using my Hubby old Nokia 'campak-lombong' HP... and trust me, it's not pretty!

So.. I have been surveying for a new HP and I am still addicted to Blackberry... why?? I don't know... May be it's the design... may be it's the name... may be becoz Oprah Winfrey is using one.... I envy her even more.. she can afford everything in the world... and she does it with her own style while doing the job she likes...

Ok... that's almost similar to me.. except for the part that 'she can afford everything'.. where I can afford only somethings...?? :P Hey... come on... I love my job, what?!

So let's take a look at some Blackberry in the market...

Blackberry Bold 9700... price is RM 2459


Blackberry Curve 8520.. price is RM 1199

So.. should I??
I'll take the cheapest as Idon't really use all the function....

But there's alway NOKIA...E71 that looks similar to Blackberry.... and there CSL's Blueberry.... may be I'll have a look at that...


Here's Sony's almost the same type


 Sony Aspen... Price... unknown...

I think I need a keyboard-like HP.. that's why these HP are so appealing for me... suggestions??

What a busy day....

Last week was hectic with marking and marking... intervals with 'milk extractions' for my dearest Aimy..
The marking part I did was so so slow... I don't know why.. 


This week all my senior and junior classes has started... busy mode is back again...
Last week although there were no class, but I fail to accomplish all the list of things I have to do...
So, this week is double trouble for me...
Another 2 weeks before the Taekwondo Championship that we are organizing... feel free to come to INTEC.. It starts 2-4th April 2010... Details can be found in our web and blog.. Just search for the 2nd INTEC Closed and Invitational Taekwondo Championship.. So this week we'll have meetings after meetings.. until all of it ends...
My timetable has been changed from no afternoon classes to Monday with afternoon classes... but the great thing about it... Friday is my no-class day... I'm HAPPY!!!!




And the latest hottest news is circling around the air of my office...  our ex-boss is now back becoming our boss!!!!
Today we'll have a meeting and I think it is to announce this formally.
I think there's a good side of it... and a bad side of it....
Both ways, some will gain benefits and some will loose.... There no win-win situation..
All of this should be credits to our new VC.. and his visions... I hope he really has a clear path to where we are heading... And it will benefit all of us in this organization....


Alas... Welcome back, BOSS!!

Aimy's immunisation miracle

Yesterday was Aimy's immunisation.. and thank God, she didn't even cry!!
Even the nurse was very surprised to see that she didn't even make any noise... Aimy even smiled at me and talked to me after that as if there's no pain at all... May be she didn't feel the pain...
It was a miracle as last night she slept the night through... so now I got the hang of it...
Parenting 101 from my sweet sweet baby gal, Aimy....

I know she's the second but then again her brother Alif is already 4 years old. Alif was the most good-behaving baby you can ever imagine. Until now, he still is... although he has a little problem with his talk... 'pelat'!!


Next year will be hectic for me.. Alif will be going to kindergarten and I'll be starting back my studying... I prau to Allah that I can survive all his challenges that awaits me.. Give me courage and strength to face it all...

My adorable Alif is with curly hair!!

Aimy.. Aimy (part 2)

Today, I came to work very.. very sleepy...
Even now, my brain is not functioning to it's maximum capacity... and why??
It's all because of my darling Aimy....

She woke up this morning at 4 am.. vomited as to her cough...
after that, she went back to sleep at 6 am.. which in my term is 'it's already time to wake up'...!!!
while in the car she was an angel... she slept through out the whole journey until Mak Mah's house.. good!!
but then again... at 2 she has an immunisation appointment... and I pray to God that she'll be fine... and will sleep soundly tonight... please!! It's a horror.....

Fashion for Muslim Chic

Yesterday there was a carnival organized by PJK, Faculty of Education, UiTM. My roommate and I went to the carnival but it was sort of disappointing coz the carnival is not as 'happening' as expected. May be the publicity was not that huge for such carnival.

However, I manage to buy a few things...

1) Aznati perfume, imitation perfume that cost only RM8. So cheap and it last long. Thx Mudiana for recommending it to me... I'll post the blog link to hers later.
2) A cardigan and dress which cost me only RM50!! They have a website for it.
You can view it and it cost very low... www.getGorgeous.com.my. They have free shippings as well... what a bargain!!

Both bought yesterday... bergayalah makcik!!

My roommate Aisyah also bought one...

Maulidur Rasul... & Ustazah Datin Aminah Zakaria

Alhamdulillah.. this morning Aimy behave very good. She cried in the middle of the highway, though. I stopped and feed her for a while. Arriving at Mak Mah's house, what a shock! Mak Mah was gone!.. She was wandering around the neighborhood, somewhere... So, I left my two Angels to Pakcik Hussin ( I hope to God that he can handle the two of them before Mak Mah arrives). I was late for a special event... Maulidur Rasul celebration.

I love to hear Ustazah Aminah when I was in school. She always delivers in a motherly way. It dawn to me that it has been 14 years since I left KISAS. Wow.. what a shock! Means that 14 years I haven't seen Ustazah Aminah... LIVE... hahaha. Except, of course, in the TV. Now she is 66 years old... with a Datin title. World changes very rapidly... 14 years everything changes... Even me myself.

She talks about Rasulullah, our role model. How to become like our role model... and I emphasize the word 'like' as we can never strive to become exactly him... I cried in my heart as I hear Ustazah gave the ceramah. Everything she said makes perfect sense! I'm so honored to be chosen to listening to her talk.. and I get it!! The most important thing is that I felt the Hidayah. Alhamdulillah. Got to go now... have a class at 12.10.

It's My Fault... sorry

Sorry Cikgu.. It's my fault. I forgot to attend your meeting. Seriously I dunno why, I told my fren I was free and we had a lunch meeting. I totally forgot to set my reminder for the meeting. I think the workloads are catching up to me... horrible!!

Cikgu, I'll make up for the not-attending-your-meeting case with the students.. promise!! I'll do my best afterwards. That's my new 'azam'!

P/S: Aimy was a good gal yesterday. Even Mak Mah told me so. I already bought the NUK bottle but Mak Mah told me there's no need for it... never mind.. This morning I put 2 bottles.. she can choose from it..

Aimy.. Aimy....

My 2-month old baby has cold since last friday... is getting better, but then she still has difficulties to adapt with the feeding bottle as she is fully breastfed before. I have tried all necessary things that I can think of to encourage her to drink milk from the bottle.

I bought Avent bottle before this and today I bought NUK brand bottle so that she can accept the teats that is more likely shaped like a breast. Please pray that my baby can be able to adapt with the bottle. I pumped the milk and store them. It is a hustle but I'll do everything for my kids... Love them!

Hello to a hectic life

I love my job... I love teaching my students... but one thing about being a lecturer is that it comes with other responsibilities.. huh!

I have marking in progress.. about only 7 bundles.. bundles of joy (so-called). But I am thankful coz that is considered less compared to before this I had to mark 18 bundles. And still I love my job... silly me.

I always compare myself with other people that I feel less fortunate than me. Those contract lecturers that strive to get permanency but yet vague. I am so damn lucky man! Even though I had to take another masters... I am still the most lucky gal in the universe...

Wow... sunshine really do shine @ lynx!!

Farewell 2009, Welcome 2010

It has been a while since I blog. 2009 has been a blessing for me. I got my permanency, blessed with a child, and my career is picking up. It has been 3 months since 2009 has left us... but having a newborn I didn't have time to update my blog that much.

2010 is looking pretty good for 3 months. Everything is lighting up... the path to the future is clear for now. I hope that it remains clear through out the whole journey of my life.

Last Sunday, it has been 6 years since Mama passed away. She draws more and more further away from us... as we head closer and closer to her state. Sometimes I just felt that with every breath that I take, I am closer to meet the All Mighty. And am I prepared for it?? Afraid?? Of course..

But, life continues...